Marion's Poems

It’s Not Easy

I find it worth it.
Most of the healing is not easy.
Kathy is not the sort of person to lie to me.
There are no guarantees
I will feel any better,
And sometimes it could make me feel worse
If I let it.

Sometimes I would like to crawl into a dark tunnel
And stay there.
I have come too far to give up completely
But it’s not easy to live on other people’s hope,
And also other people’s faith that life will get better.
It is a tremendous relief
When I finally stop
And face my own demons.
When I look into my mirror
All I could ever see was a little girl.
The other day my reflection was so different,
I just don’t know what to think.

It is a real nice feeling
I don’t have to pretend anymore
I feel like I am starting
To give myself a future.

Marion
04.10.02